I'm a heterosexual man and yet a lot about me is very feminine. I wear the shell of a man, but more often than not, I feel like a woman. Whatever that means. In fact, there are moments in which I feel more like a woman than a man. In fact, at times I wish I were a woman.
I love the woman inside me. She's sweet, tender, playful. She loves to cuddle and be cuddled. She loves to make other people feel good and loves to make me feel loved. I can feel her looking through my masculine eyes. Her gaze is soft and alluring. She doesn't shy away from being playfully seductive. I love looking at people with seductive eyes. But not the kind of seduction that is sexual or erotic. Nah, I'm talking about the eyes of a friend that really, really loves you without any agenda. Through my elongated lashes and dark brown eyes, she whispers to people I see that, although I can sometimes seem abrasive, I'm actually very kind.
We talk lot, my woman and I. She loves to reveal herself when I dance and sing to me when I walk. When I look in the mirror, she checks if my earrings match my outfit and if my hair falls the right way so as to highlight the softness of my face. When I feel sadness, she comforts me by telling me that life isn't always easy when you open your heart to being vulnerable.
I feel like a woman in the way I can move my body. I love elegant, feminine movements. I feel her moving inside my body like a powerful snake. I love crossing my legs when I sit and wearing eye liner. I like having a soft voice that carries my sentences gracefully into the soul of another.
I can raise my shoulders and rest my cheek on one of them and in that moment I feel like a masculine woman. My woman has tremendous courage, is strong and proud. She's fearless and moves through me with passion. She feels a lot, sometimes a bit too much for my liking, but I let her feel. She makes me feel alive. She's always hungry to taste more of life. She loves to dress up nicely and talk with other women too. That's when she feels heard and held the most.
Most importantly, the woman in me loves me. And I love her and am grateful for her presence. I'm a very lucky man to have such a healthy relationship with my feminine energy.